Reason #9286491
We were lying in bed together earlier today, just lazing and trying to get comfy on my new small mattress. It’s felt like such a long week (even though it’s only Wednesday), what with school starting and me moving to a new place and all. He’s been an angel, helping me with the carrying and the ferrying of stuff and the assembling of furniture.
So there I was, lying on his chest and telling him all the things I like about him. His brain, how he does silly things every day that make me laugh, his bum, the fact that he’s the silent and broody type, how he’s so hardcore about stuff he loves, how he can be so vain in such a weird way, etcetc. I was rambling on and on, when I got interrupted by his train of thought - to buy epilady. For his legs. Not mine. His legs. Epilady. Of all things. Epilady. (I don’t know if I will ever get used to it.) Okay in his defense, it’s an actual cycling thing. Don’t ask me more, because I don’t get it either.
That promptly got us off my mushy list of mushiness, but there was one thing I didn’t say as properly as I should have. And I’m going to try and explain it as best as I can, more of a reminder for myself than anything else.
I’ve always been such a big fan of words. While that might not be my main love language, they’ve always carried weight for me. It’s not so much about insecurity or the need for my partner to be effusive, but there’s a comfort in having someone always remind you that they love you. It was how I was raised - constant reminders. So there’s been a certain amount of adjustment for me in this new relationship.
The reason why I love him being silent and broody isn’t really because of the silent and broody itself. It’s more of the fact that he just does things to show how much he cares. While he’s not the most expressive of partners, there’s such a sense of stability in him when it comes to us. And I’m starting to realize that’s what counts. Because if I look back, boys have come and gone, and boys have said things, but did they really mean anything? But when this one says something to me, I can tell the words have weight.
And really I think that’s the best part about him so far. :)
