Something Scary Daily
I finally had a talk with my boss about my growing dissatisfaction with work. I don’t know what it is about him (or the office environment??) that makes me literally freeze inside. I’m not *assertive*, I can actually stare at a one sentence email wondering if I don’t sound right. It doesn’t help that he is so incredibly busy all the time that it makes me wobble inside and wonder if a small fry like me deserves his time. Coupled with my fear of rejection, hahahaha I’m a pathetic nut. ._.
Anyway, I finally did it today. After Siew’s relentless virtual shooing (“JUST GO JUST GO TALK TO HIM. GOOOOOOOO”), I walked up to his desk and asked in a weird non-Sarah voice whether he would have time for me.
While the results of the conversation wasn’t exactly what I had hoped for, I’m glad I did it. At the rate I’m going, I’ll be brave enough to ask for a promotion/pay raise when the time calls for it (ie. 5-10 years..?).
And even if by a longshot that fails, I know that there’s someone who will help me be brave when I am a complete chicken.
